Let me share with you a little bit about my story and the difference between my life today and my life before I started diving into, and listening to, my body. I call it “before and “after”, but in reality it is an ongoing process. The Journey always continues. Deeper and deeper into this mystery we call Life…

BEFORE

During my teenage years I was constantly feeling anxious or nervous. Fear was an almost constant companion. I had a lot of social anxiety, my stomach would turn into a knot anytime I had to talk to anybody. I was a people pleaser, a “sweet girl who doesn’t cause any trouble”, and I mostly avoided people whenever I could. I had a poor sense of my own boundaries, which contributed to me feeling fearful in almost all situations involving other people.

I was often feeling weighed down by heavy feelings, but I was very good at hiding it from the world around me, always putting on a happy smile, quick to reassure people - and fooling myself in the process - that I was a happy and very positive young girl. I am a positive person, but back then I didn’t know how much sadness and grief and rage, but also deeply repressed power, energy and fierce LOVE, I carried within my system.  

In my early twenties I met a boy, a young man, who I believed to be “the one”, the one I would marry one day and have children with. We bought a dog a few years into our relationship, and some time later got our first own apartment. He was like a bridge into a new world. We healed a lot together and became each others safe harbor, even if there were many pitfalls and challenges.

When I was 28, things started to really crumble between us. For a few years, things had begun to feel heavier, even if we both tried to stay positive. We couldn’t get out of our patterns and we kept digging deeper holes. I started doing embodiment work at around the age of 26. It was a completely different world to the one I’d been used to thus far. I was learning emotional processing, Vipassana meditation and lots of other things, slowly growing my inner presence, stability and awareness of my internal world. But instead of things getting better between us, they got worse. I was sure I could fix it by fixing myself and I was not giving up.

One day we had an argument, and even though our arguments lately had been heated, with oftentimes raised voices or me yelling, something snapped inside of me this time and I pushed him aggressively in the chest. I realized then that things weren’t working. Things were deteriorating. And I was not going down a road of that kind of aggression and violent behaviour.

One day in May 2022, we were at the sea. Again, I brought up the fact that I didn’t feel connected to him. The emotional connection I kept waiting for just never came. We started arguing and went back to the car, where he suggested that, perhaps we should take a little break. For the first time, I didn’t say no.

Right at that moment, strangely enough, I saw my sister’s car driving towards where we sat in our car. We hadn’t told anyone where we were. A strange coincidence. My sister and her boyfriend stepped out of their car as I stepped out of mine. I walked over to my sister and started crying. I told her that we were considering taking a break. And she put her hands on my shoulders, looked straight into my eyes and asked the question that would set my life on a new course:

“Do you think it’s time to end it?”

In that same instant as I heard her words, looking into her large brown eyes, I felt a bolt of crystal clear clarity in my body, and I heard a voice from within. A wordless voice which I had never heard before. It said:

Yes

THE JOURNEY

That day, at a parking lot by the sea, changed everything. I could not deny the clarity with which that inner wordless voice had spoken, even if it scared me.

A few days later, after spending some time apart, I took the step and initiated the conversation that brought about the ending of our relationship:

“It is time for our journey together to come to an end.”

And so, after nearly 7 years, it did.

I hadn’t been single for any longer periods of time since I was 16. I had never really lived alone. Now, my Journey really began. I left my “old life” behind. It really felt as though my life began anew. A New Beginning. A second chance. I began sensing something huge was coming. 

I didn’t have a place of my own, so I stayed a bit in my sisters apartment. I listened inwards. My intuition - just a quiet little whisper of a knowing - told me, that I would find a place to live, find a new job, and go on a journey somewhere and that this would all happen sometime in July, August or September. All three things came true. In July, I got my very first apartment of my own. It was BEAUTIFUL, more beautiful and lovely than I had hoped for at this point in my life. In August, I went on a trip to Denmark, to visit a friend I had only met once before at a retreat, which would also turn out to be a crucial step on my journey. And in September, I started a new job, which would also turn out to be better and more uplifting than any job I’d ever had before.

My personal journey kept taking me deeper. I started really listening to my inner guidance, my body, my intuition. One big thing it told me was to start making space, cut ties and downscale my life. I was guided to spend more time at home. To stop watching the news (even if I'd never been a great news-watcher before that either haha). To let go of “how things should be done” and in what order you are “supposed” to live life. I started to rest more. I spent hours and hours in bed, and for the first time in my life, I started to feel really safe - for the first time almost ever, there was nobody else around me to focus on and to take into consideration. I began relaxing into myself, deeper and deeper, and began to really meet what was there. Sadness. Grief. Rage. I cried and cried, and screamed into my pillow at times. I went deeper into letting myself express whatever was inside of me, through intuitive movement, incorporating sound and breath. Letting my body lead, more and more.

Things started to shift. I had moments of deep inner silence. Incredible and frequent moments of synchronicities so strange and mind-blowing that I began to open to  the idea that there MUST be something more to the world around us than what meets the eye.

Things started picking up speed. Not so much on the outside as within. I started seeing an inner “vision” of my future, of massive mountains stretching out into the distance, a great mighty river, and at the end, music, laughter, singing, dancing. It felt POWERFUL. I heard it, within me. Deep impressions, of a majestic world that I had forgotten but now started to remember, and which I knew, felt, lay ahead of me in my future. A tangible and very real future, if I kept going. And it felt HUGE. I sensed my LIFE, my life’s PURPOSE, and my own Power. I could FEEL it. I didn’t know on a mental level what it was, and I realised that this was how my intuition and inner voice communicated with me - not through words, but through my body. Feelings, visions, impressions, sensations. A pull or a push, a little whisper or a nudge.

I kept going. I threw all things “logical”, “should do”, and “right/wrong” out the window and followed my inner guidance. More and more often I felt a strange sense of being tested. As if I was presented with tests, playful but challenging tests, to see if I was actually committed to following my inner guidance and stay true to what I was claiming that I wanted. I felt as if I was asked, over and over and over again, to surrender, give up control, let go. And EVERY SINGLE TIME that I listened - I was rewarded. Things aligned, opportunities arose, and meetings with people - meetings that held an energy of, there is something deeper going on here than a simple “chance meeting” - happened more and more frequently.

As I kept listening, my intuition grew stronger. My capacity, to be with and hold all kinds of different emotional states within me, grew and widened, and was strengthened the more I practiced embodiment and listening inwards.

I grew stronger. I trusted myself more. My boundaries became stronger. I stopped people-pleasing. I found a well of inner strength and stability so strong and deep I sometimes felt scared of it. My Power. 

I kept going, following threads of magical, intense and incredible synchronicities, until one day, I made a choice that would change the course of my life. I signed up for an online 11 week long container, called “The Initiation”, which was  - to summarize - about life, masculine and feminine energies, and the elements. Fire, Earth, Air, Water.

Strange things happened within me as I moved through the course. My intuition and my ability to sense things grew to a completely new level. And at the end of it, the day after the course had finished, I connected with a man who had also gone through the course. A man, who would go on and change everything I thought I knew about my life forever.

But that’s another story.

NOW

I feel my power. I trust it. I trust My Path and the work I am here to do. I am not afraid, and if I am - I dance with my fear, and I never allow fear to govern my life. I am moving forward with sure steps. Sitting in the Unknown, I trust my inner knowing.

I Remember Who I Am.

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If you are still asking yourself 

“Why do it?”

Here are a few of my reasons why:

• Safety. This work helps you build an inner well of safety that supports you in moving through the world with more courage, knowing that you are enough just as you are.

• Stronger BOUNDARIES

• Deeper SELF-LOVE

• More ALIVENESS

• Increased PLEASURE

• Tapping into your MAGNETISM - you naturally become more magnetic as you inhabit your body more deeply

• CLARITY and DIRECTION - you trust more and more that a deeper part of you knows the way, even if it doesn’t make sense to your mind or to the people around you

• RECONNECTING to yourself and get clear on what You are here to Be or Create

• DEEPER CONNECTION with life

• RICH and ABUNDANT experiences of feeling life more deeply

• Re-arranging your PRIORITIES - you prioritize your wellbeing and understand the benefits of doing it

• You become more able to CHANGE limiting habits and patterns of self-sabotage into more intentional, powerful and positive ways forward

• You become more AWARE of who you are, what you want and what you need, and it becomes easier to take steps that serve your life, wellbeing and purpose.

• You tap into your Body’s Wisdom

This is a deep journey. It requires commitment, dedication and time. Yet, it can also be done with softness and ease, and we automatically create powerful shifts when we reconnect deeply with who we are.  The Journey of uncovering who we truly are demands of us that we leave some of the comfort and safety of the known behind, and venture into the Unknown. We might come face to face with truths that challenge us. Things we don’t want to look at, or struggle to accept. We will go through cycles of expansion - where everything flows and feels amazing - and contraction/ stagnation, where everything feels like shit or seems to be falling apart, and we just want to crawl into bed and never come out.

This is the journey. It is not for the faint of heart. You decide how deep you want to go, and if you want to go really deep, it will require the act of being honest with yourself. The act of choosing vulnerability, and of becoming more intimate with your inner world. Choosing to ask yourself deeper questions and to let go of old habitual stories, while welcoming new truths that are ready to come forth. Choosing to love yourself,  deeper, deeper, deeper. 

“Nothing in the world is as soft and yielding as water. Yet for dissolving the hard and inflexible, nothing can surpass it. The soft overcomes the hard; the gentle overcomes the rigid.”

- Tao Te Ching - Verse 78

“The Power is Real

The Story is Forever

The Time is Now”

Are you ready?